PORNOGRAPHY

by Bryan Borland

This is what it’s like
holding your own

book: picture a mirror
held up to your face,

uncomfortably close,
painfully close,

a torturous exercise
in exceptional vanity.  Picture it

held there as you sneezed,
ugly-cried, laughed, tripped,

kissed, picked your nose.
Picture it broadcast

on the high-definition television
in your second cousin’s bedroom.

Picture a comma forgotten,
lines flubbed,

watching yourself
in something akin to pornography.

Picture a birthmark you didn’t
know was there

right on your ass,
right in the middle of the screen.

Now I know why
Brent Corrigan* doesn’t watch

his own movies.

© Bryan Borland

(*insert your favorite adult film star here.)