Tag: Memories

TIME CHANGE

Time has fallen backwards into morning black holes,
where even the cats are confused we’re awake.

My clock is ticking fast these days, these neurons
misfiring with age and bursting memories,

like standing with my brother in front of the fireplace,
the warmth of it against the back

of my bare legs before school. Daylight savings
brought with it boxes of us together, things

I even forget to dream,
so that when I wake up, and it’s still dark,

I pretend his arm is around me
like in a photograph of us, circa 1982.

© Bryan Borland

OLD BOYFRIENDS ON FACEBOOK

I don’t send them friend requests,
these boys, now men, who lit
me up like bonfires
in celebrations of my younger days.
Today, they are form-fitting suits
with feet propped up
on corner-office desks,
Blackwater mercenaries
with shaky aim pulling triggers,
traveling salesmen talking fast,
pulling bait and switch. They are
on the border of Iraq and Iran
playing chicken with natives.
They are home in seventeen days,
married last October,
missing a body part I remember well.
They are smiling in photographs
with people I don’t recognize
who don’t write poetry,
who aren’t as beautiful
as me.

© Bryan Borland

RESIDUALS

So often in dreams
the setting is my childhood home,
the garage full of multiplying and subtracting cats,
the yellow-and-orange-streaked linoleum of
the kitchen, the lava of my boyhood games,
the windowless den, a museum alive
with objects long ago lost or left behind,
with things out of sight or just off
the edges of old photographs.
The characters are often out of place,
think Holden Caulfield in fair Verona
or Huck Finn in Revolutionary France,
as if a passenger train on a time-lined track
had its cars rearranged at random,
the giants of my life introduced and allowed to mingle.
My husband stands with me at the cool glass of the front door,
his arms around this ageless version of myself in
a place he never knew.
I can smell the house after my mother cleaned,
can smell the Christmas trees of those young Decembers.
Nothing is strange to me here,
there is nothing unnatural about
this lifetime condensed,
the things most loved remaining.

© Bryan Borland

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